pursuit of happiness

I'm so sleepy this morning & it would be easy to sit around all day in my pj's, but I'm not.  Yesterday Stephen and I went to the park and kicked our soccer ball around, but the best part of the day was when we made honey chilli chicken for dinner.  yum.
This morning I made some birdie and rosie felt toys that I think I'm going to make into a garland or mobile for my friends bubba, scarlett. they look a little something like this:

then I started thinking of making awhole series of tattoo themed ones, like an anchor, cherries, skullerfly etc.  that only got me thinking of tattoos, I want to add to my half sleeve to make it a 3/4 one.  I was thinking an anchor, lock and key (at the moment I have a russian doll, gypsy roses/cherries).  but yeah, no job kinda equals no income for now, so my tattoo ideas will have to wait.
speaking of jobs, stephen and i were talking yesterday, and i realised that even though nursing sucked, i really enjoyed the assessment/admin side of it. i'm a sucker for filling in forms. then it got me thinking about workplace health and safety/risk analysis/health promotion/primary healthcare etc, which i also really enjoyed...yes i'm a nerd.  so i'm going to look into jobs in that field/theme, and also look into qualifications for the same.  i'm kinda undecided when it comes to 'careers'and jobs.  in the past ten years  i've wanted to be a childcare worker, lawyer, social worker, kindergarden teacher - and have at one time or another been accepted into uni to study law/soical work/teaching. because i totally lacked self confidence i never followed through with any of those choices and stuck with what i knew, which is nursing. but i decided this year was going to be my year and i was going to do or not do whatever i wanted, i was going to focus on activities and interests that made me happy, and i wasnt going to be influenced by other peoples opinions/actions.  because ultimately, i have to be responsible for my own happiness and i cant please everyone all of the time, and if they have a problem with what i'm doing, well its exactly that, their problem, not mine.  it wasnt until i was my early 20's that i finally learnt and accepted that i had to take action/responsibility for my happiness, and it is only now, at 28, that i'm really following through.  its scary, but in a good way.

So you got the navy blues...

it has been raining for the past two days, which is sometimes my favourite weather.  i got up early to make mini quiches and caramel slice, because really, i didn't have much else to do.  i spent half the morning speaking in meows to the cat, he does these cute little baby meows back.  right now he is curled up on the couch asleep.  he's such a babykittyface. 

one of the things that i am most happy about now that all my time is now 'spare' time is that i can really pay more attention to my health and wellbeing.  before everything was rushrushrush,workworkwork.sleep.sleep.sleep.  i wasn't eating properly or exercising.  i broke my ankle a few years back playing roller derby and turned completely lazy and subsequently have put on like a trillion kgs which makes me feel yuck.  now that i can plan my days properly i try and do about 45mins of exercise a day,. i have a plastic crate that is filled with all the things i need- my sneakers, sports bra, socks, shorts, dvds, soccer ball,  dumbells, yoga mat, swiss ball, etc so that i can't talk myself out of it.  because i totally reside in procrastination city and can justify/talk myself out of anything, which has been my downfall.  so over the past few weeks i've been practicising mindfullness, it was suggested to me because my thoughts run a million miles an hour and i drive myself crazy.  so i try to be more aware of my thoughts and focus on what i'm actually doing each moment.  because i operate on autopilot alot.  living with stephen has helped me realise that maybe the way i do things isn't always the best and i've learnt alot and learnt to be more comfortable and accepting of other ways of doing things.  as an example, i used to do all the washing up all at once...which only put me in a bad mood because the whole time i would be thinking about how i hated washing up etc.  now i do it in bursts throughout the day, and i have about half an hour after dinner where i finish it all of and tidy up etc. its working out pretty well so far and resulted in a happier less crazy me.  anyway, apart of me practicising mindfullness is that i decided to take pics of things i love for that week...so this week i am obsessed with these chai frappe shakes i am making, the pansies i planted, ollie meowmeow and my engagement ring...stephen and i got engaged last july but it was only this week i got an engagement ring. i love it. 

OH. yesterday i also discovered 'french toast' flavour at baskins. ummm new favourite. 

i haven't got much else planned for today, am going to attempt to make a little owl softie for one of my mama friends. 

x

first post!!

I started this blog because I miss writing.  I used to write all the time & it allowed me to get all the nonsense out of my head & sorted, I guess.  I love how writing let me re-evulate/discard/reinvent/build upon old ideas/values/thoughts/emotions & turn all the crazy that goes on in my head into something I can work with!
So abit about me, I'm 28yrs old, living in a tiny apartment with my fiance Stephen and our kittyface Ollie in Brisbane, Australia...we are contemplating moving to Perth sometime later this year.  At the moment I spend my days mostly doing housework, reading and baking...a lady of leisure! I was a nurse for most of my 'adult' life, kept at it, but when I was coming home every afternoon bitching about staff/workload/stress & feeling completely miserable, I decided to quit. Its a pretty scary thing as I've always been the one to play it safe. I have no idea what I want to do, or if I even want a "career"....one of my major inner conflicts is do i chose "career" or do I chose some random job that gives me an income to do all the other things that make me happy.  Well at the moment I'm going with the second option and have no complaints so far.  xo